Junior year.

2 weeks have past by. Sometimes it goes fast, and sometimes slow. Grades, are already slipping. And I cant afford for that to happen. New friends, are always great, trying not to have any enemies this year. Just looking to have fun and also her. I know it wont be given to me, I have to take it. Chances may come, and they might be passed. So every opportunity I get I have to take advantage of it. Playing ball everyday, thinking about her every minute. I dont know if I should be saying this but here it goes anyways. Day dreaming... always excited, I wake up to think what shes doing, I picture her in my mind, smiling, and laughing. Texting late nights, unexpected phone calls. So I picked up where I left off last year, didn't really talk during the summer, but she was on my mind. Thinking about how I should do better, and if I really had a chance in the first place, or was I wasting my breath, signs? none at all. Lost interest, I think not. Out of my league, I think so. How could a girl like her ever want a man like me? So, basically everyone knows about my interests in this girl. Never went a whole school day with out someone mentioning her name to me. No balls? Is what she thinks about me. I couldn't even approach her to say "hi" or "hello" if she never came up to me, iono where we would be, even doubt we would be friends. So we talk, conversations growing as the days past on, emotions build, I being to open up. Questions I ask to my self, "should I even go through the pain of another relationship?" "do I wanna get hurt?" "should I give it a try?" how do I find out if she have the littlest bit of interest? Do I wait? Or do I make a move? Angelo and I had a conversation regarding this topic earlier on today, I could relate to him, we had similar problems in the past, so we helped each other, with out own advice. "make her show you that your diffrent than all the other guys, make her, make you feel special" Thanks bro. So, people tell me, "you should make a move" Thats when I stop to think, if I do make a move, what if shes not ready, or not intrested, that would be awkward, Im just trying not to get hurt, Mixed signals is what im getting, cant seem to get a grip on to this situation, give me a sign. just thought I would get this off my chest. I mean, I cant tell the future, nor do I know you as well as others do. But I like you, from your personality, to the way you make me feel on the inside,its magical, your different, your better than them all. This is from the heart. you got me...

Schools just getting started, this year is the turning point. this year determines my future... in a way. lol


Girl what is this magic i feel inside
Why can't i breathe when you're near by
My heart is pounding so hard
I think of you so much that i can't sleep
You're like the rose that blooms in spring
You're like the snow that winter brings
And i give anything juss to have you talk to me

on another note. I failed my history test today. FML.